My life and Islam.
As a child, I constantly thought intensely about the world and its meaning. I only
talked a little and knew there was more to life than fun and games. Even though I was
small, I was more grown-up than other children my age. Being born in the UK, school
never taught us about Islam, and there were no Muslim teachers there. I used to
write about Islam at first and was very proud of my work, but I wasn't given any
credit for it and was sometimes told off by the teachers. So, I decided to keep my
faith at home instead of showing my passion for religion at school.
Colouring and writing stories seemed purposeless, but I did it as best as possible. It
seemed straightforward and unproductive compared to the true meaning of why I
was alive that I was seeking. Once, when learning about the Holocaust of millions of
European Jews, a thought came into my mind about what we were learning; "what
was their religion about? We aren't learning about that, but what happened to them."
Even Judaism wasn't taught, as Zionism is a controlling characteristic in the UK!
Years have passed, and I know that Muslims being terrorists are being widely
conducted in schools and mandatory for our children.
While my friends talked about movies and games, I rambled the playground, looking
at plants and kicking stones. I knew I didn't belong in a place that never cared about
the splendours of life and our creator, Allah. They thought I was strange and I never
cared to talk much, even though I could. When I spoke about Islam, they disregarded
or mocked me. I got into fights and showed a lot of strength when defending myself.
My inner anger towards the other children came bursting out often, and I found it
frightening to experience a rage that I never knew was boiling inside me.
Life was a load of emotional injuries inflicted on my emotions and heart, resulting in
the insociable person I am today. If I voice my concerns, I'd be avoided, mocked,
insulted, and made even smaller than I already am. I do feel left out and very old-
fashioned to others in comparison, but I know Allah is with me, and when the last day
arrives, games and movies won't help them; only Islam will.